Monday, 13 December 2010

Power Play?

I know its been a while since my last update... lets see.... 2 months now..ish, and im frankly dissappointed in myself.

Still, im sure no-one's really expecting one from me anyway, recently taken up a few small bits of hobbies, such as taunting top's/dom's in minor ways, like calling them softy's, or patting them on the head patronistically, i just cant put it into works how much enjoyment i get from messing with the balance of power.

the other hobby i've picked up is engraving, its still taking shape yet, but since i've got the tools for it now, it certainly gonna take on a new dimension now at least :)

Wednesday, 6 October 2010

First Heels, NOW, THIS!

I did a big post a while ago about wonderful shoes, and the many many links i have for them, im gonna post a few of my favourite kinky networking sites, and the ones i use, on which, my username is "Kronopticon", and of course, some of my very favourite shops online for buying things such as rope, and other bondage equipment ^-^

Bound Anna
FetLife
CollarMe
Dommes
Informed Consent
British Spanking

That concludes my social networking sites, though not all of them are ideal, they exist, and just a forewarning, some of the sites are more united kingdom based than others.

Sub Shop
Loving It Large
Virtuous Sins
Sounds Naughty
LoveHoney My personal Fave!
JT's Stockroom
Extreme Restraints
Fantasy Leather Works
Simply Pleasure
Trussed UK
Bondara
SM Factory
Nice N Naughty
Bondara Also amazing.
Super Dresses Some amazing kinky outfits on here!

Thats just to name a few anyway :P enjoy

Monday, 27 September 2010

MONKEY PAWWWW

This is a little guide on how to make a fake "monkeys paw" with moving fingers, the series of images arent complete, and at this current time, i cannot show you the finished product, but i shall post it at some point in the future.

Things you will need:
Liquid latex
Bits of polycore rope, in my case, i used short lengths of black cotton rope with white core
toilet roll tube
electrical tape
toilet roll
string
thin tape (scotch tape is fine)
talcum powder



Initially, you need to cut 4 lengths of rope to an appropriate finger length, this doesnt necessarily need to be a monkey paw, so any adjustments can always be made to the outside to make it any other kind of moving hand, human or otherwise.



You then need to attatch a string to the core of the rope, the string should be 3-4 times the length of the rope for ample use.



Pull the rope core through, dragging the string with it, you can discard the core if need be. and tie the string onto the outside of the top of the rope outside layer.





Simply tape around the end to ensure the string doesnt slip anywhere.



Cover the rest of the rope with the tape, to seal it for when you apply the liquid latex.



Use the electrical tape to make segments on the fingers, the segments is where the finger will bend, so make sure there is plenty of space, to allow flexibility.



Put all 4 fingers inside the toilet roll tube, which you can bend to an appropriate shape, thinner towards the wrist, etc.



You may want to pad the main section of hand, to make it padded and more lifelike.
And if you like, you can make a Thumb, which you can incorporate by cutting an x into the tube, and pulling the string through.



Make sure the strings are still accessable and fill the tube with toilet roll to make sure it doesnt lose its shape.



Wrap the rest of the hand with electrical tape, again to ensure the liquid latex doesnt bond as much with the hand.



If you want, the strings can be backtracked to its palm or wherever you like, if you want, but anywhere other than straight down will create more drag, which makes it harder to move the fingers.



You can now start coating the hand in latex, making sure not to get the string wet with latex, you should do this in a similar method to papier mache, you should wrap sections in toilet paper, or any similar thin paper, even gauze, wrap the sections, and wipe the latex over it till it soaks in.



You may want to quick dry the latex as you do this, to prevent the fingers sticking together, as this will happen often, you should quick dry it with a hairdryer, or anything similar, and then coat it with talcum powder, to seal the latex, to totally prevent it from sticking to itself, and during this process, through various means, you can do things like stick hairs to it, longer hairs, like a monkeys, should be done in lines, which when the hairs are layed flat, to overlap each other.

Thursday, 2 September 2010

Chaotic Mental State

Ever been at one of those silly crossroad parts of your life, where everything makes sense, but thats why you cant choose.
Where you cant even decide whether you want milk in your coffee any more?

Im there right now... There's so much in my life that i want to do and so very much im sure i CAN do.
But i still cant do it. Stuck in Limbo as it were.
Waiting for something, anyhing to stand out from the rest, because the problem is that everything is an option.

Too many options....

I'm not sure who i am anymore, i dont know what group i identify with, where i fit in the crappy grand scheme of things. I know some stuff, i've been told by literally a few people that im intelligent, but maybe that might be the problem, im not sure of my limits yet.

I have ideas... plenty of ideas... more than i can get down on paper.
I keep thinking and thinking and thinking and its driving me insane.
Stuck in a dimension where my thoughts echo into the distance and returns to me yelling and swirling and chiming like a thousand different bells in my head.
Nothing is audible.... only noise.

Whats worse is when i have a fantastic idea.
It usually fizzles to nothing, or i get bored, or sidetracked, or yet again someone demands my attention for a certain time and date and im stuck having to help them with their dreams.
I wish i could get away from the noise and DO something, but the buzzing and ringing and swirling and chiming keeps driving me to nothing.

Im stuck.
The rest of my life seems to be trapped by obligations and yellow tape. To college, parents, friends, the government stopping me from driving, just... trapped.
Im trapped with even trying to get a job i might like, because college hours prevent me from being able to hold down a stable job along with the undeniable fact that i cant drive anywhere, so i'll always be relying on other people to try and get places when public transport fails me for yet another throwdown.

Im utterly trapped, trapped within my mind, trapped in time, trapped in place, and because of this.... One thought... One thought keeps resonating and yelling and poking the gooey centre of my mind so much i can barely take it any more, getting louder and louder and louder driving me further and further.

But what worries me, is that it makes sense. It makes sense to me, and i hide it, beneath my layers of lies and more lies, not because i want to lie to people, but that there's so little of me there, that the lies are the most real thing about me.

Im also worried because of my dreams, i used to have dreams... so many dreams, usually of the future, of things that i will experience in my life, and i've been through so many bouts of deja vu because of them. But i dont have many anymore. Like i dont have a future anymore....

Suicide is my thought. And it lies in wait like a panther waiting in the rushes to pounce, but luring me in, like a dog to a bone inside a kennel. i know it makes sense, i know what happens, but i think its the only choice i can actually choose, without lying anyway...

The thought keeps getting louder and louder, echoing like a ripple in the pond, louder and louder as i fear my days draw nearer and nearer to what i perceive as the end.

I keep rushing you know.... rushing to make something of myself and make my life valuable. Or interesting, and yet, i cant find a purpose, i cant find a truth, im lost... trying to make something out of nothing before the thought consumes me and im not me, so i cant make something out of myself.

I dont want it to, but it roars and braces itself ready to pounce and push me into madness or death. To make me lose myself, to ruin me..... i want something to recognise me, to get through this stage in my life will be easy.

But it wont last long. i'll get through it, but then there'll be nothing left, an empty shell wondering who he is, or why he is. when there is no resolve to anything.

Thursday, 19 August 2010

Been A While...

It's been a while, but i've been...... busy? not really, but neglect starts with a logical reason for neglect, and then it works it wiley little way into just an excuse, and then there's no excuse at all, and then its just neglection, but i did a painting all the same... and you can have a look, there's the japanese kanji for love in there, along with some other crap.... its not great, but i put 2 days of work into it, and im ever so slightly proud of it...

Monday, 2 August 2010

The Delayer Gets Delayed again. by himself.

I am thus, yet agan postponing the rest of the walkthrough, though none of you knew, i created the walkthrough several blogs ago, but never finished it because my computer crashed while performing the next step in the process, and i hadnt saved it, so i wrote over the blog containing it and recreated the new one, but thus i must delay the update and probably final section simply because im not at home, and its very difficult to do such things when you dont have a reliable internet connection.

Though i do have a connection, and shall be trying to fill in some blogs in the meantime while i am temporarily away.

On a relevant side note, free wifi zones in cafe's and takeaways are one of the best things ever in a centreparc, because i can truly have all the comforts at home while away.
Internet and Greasy food! :D i am a winnar.

Saturday, 31 July 2010

The Walkthrough.

As promised, the walkthrough i promised as to my drawing process with my computer-based drawings.

In all my drawings, i usually start with a base image. Something simple, just to give myself the main idea of the image.


I then trace over this vaguely for my outline of the focus of the image, often straying completely away from the immediate image.
-Side note: i dont draw bare feet initially, because i find them very difficult, and im not actually including them in this walkthrough-


Afterwards, i remove the base image, and add in some foreground elements so im not including various elements of the main focus that i dont need to include.


And at this point in time, it is quite late for me and daddy needs his sleeps.
So im gonna go to sleep now. I'll finish this off soon. enjoy in the meantime? :P